the demon in me

Thursday, September 20, 2007

as a level draw closer, tx became a emo person. he longs to go out and wild have fun with peeps. approaching a important exam reminds me of the previous, the o level. well.. life was so much simplier back then, but i screwed it up at that time. i was still with her, seems to be the girl whom i had really really loved the most and the girl whom i hurt the most. well now, today tx is single! kinda weird though.. i miss the "mugging" tgt. tx is at the frontline of the battle again... only that this time, tx is standing there like an idiot alone..

4:15 AM
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got back chem p1 and 3 , just pass p1 flunk p3 like mad.. soo.... end up flunk whole paper... and my usually hair dresser dunno y decided to go work in malaysia.. zzzzz damn change to a girl hair dresser.. ppl say she is some award winning one... BUT my hair look so kuku now... damn today.... i wanna go club tml but seems like ppl are changing their minds... haix... i wanna PARTY!!!!

3:41 AM
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Tuesday, September 11, 2007

This is the first step tx taken to be a successful man.

TX's PICTURE BOOK

SATAN:"no tx is not kissing the target board tx is thinking of setting a Goal!"

SATAN:"RIGHT NOW THINK!!!"

TX:"i got it"
SATAN:"TX HAS A PLAN"

TX:"i shall write my Goals here~"
SATAN:"Cool~"

TX:"heh heh"
SATAN:"Siao"

TX:"ta ta!! my Goals"
SATAN:"wah lao eh... get real"
GOD:"shut up la satan"

SATAN:"Oi! dreaming of cookies issit!"
GOD:"I SAY SHUT UP!! he seeing his future with his AAB cert lah"

TX:"YES I CAN DO IT"
GOD:"YES you can"
SATAN:"cannot one la everyday day dream only come eat cookies"

tx became a cookie monster and mugging happily ever after....

10:47 PM
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Thursday, September 6, 2007

dear lord,
i am falling deeper and deeper into this hell i had willingly set my foot in. i am fearing that someone will take her away. even though i know it is impossible for a happy ending i cant let go. but i dont even know how it started. i tried hard to fight back the impulse but how long can i hold on?

lord pls hear my cry
my lord pls show me the way
let me have the wisdom to decided
give me the power to endure
i praise u and worship u
my almighty lord satan.

7:44 AM
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Wednesday, September 5, 2007

dear lord,
i am struggling... to blog or not to blog... not to blog as no 1 visit this blog and to blog as no 1 visit this blog so i can be emo or mean or wadever.

the emo part
i am feeling damn depressed, i am always smiling fooling ard telling lame jokes acting like a monkey and pretending to be damn interested looking at girls. no 1 knows me, no 1 know how i really feel. ppl are saying tx is so cheerful and funny. but who knows wad is going on in my mind within my heart. sometimes i really feel as in selling my soul to the devil is much better than leading my life the way it is now.. deep within there is such intense loneliness that can easily crush me. all i ask for is a soul mate. the song soul mate says every1 will have a soul mate.. but where is mine? jesus christ eaten mine at his last supper?

the repentance
there are ppl whom are my friends that i had been an ass to. to bryan, to elyn, to yiling , to tk.. i am sry..

the speical some1
i tried to stay away from her, abstain from thinking of her. it doesnt help a single bit.. i even tries to make my self interested in looking at some other girl but that other girl reminds me of her again with her backview.. i am so so so so fucked.

6:34 AM
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