Where Satan Meets God


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Wednesday, September 5, 2007

dear lord,
i am struggling... to blog or not to blog... not to blog as no 1 visit this blog and to blog as no 1 visit this blog so i can be emo or mean or wadever.

the emo part
i am feeling damn depressed, i am always smiling fooling ard telling lame jokes acting like a monkey and pretending to be damn interested looking at girls. no 1 knows me, no 1 know how i really feel. ppl are saying tx is so cheerful and funny. but who knows wad is going on in my mind within my heart. sometimes i really feel as in selling my soul to the devil is much better than leading my life the way it is now.. deep within there is such intense loneliness that can easily crush me. all i ask for is a soul mate. the song soul mate says every1 will have a soul mate.. but where is mine? jesus christ eaten mine at his last supper?


the repentance
there are ppl whom are my friends that i had been an ass to. to bryan, to elyn, to yiling , to tk.. i am sry..

the speical some1
i tried to stay away from her, abstain from thinking of her. it doesnt help a single bit.. i even tries to make my self interested in looking at some other girl but that other girl reminds me of her again with her backview.. i am so so so so fucked.

6:34 AM
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