the demon in me

Sunday, October 21, 2007

i fought with my dad last night. i might be childish but hell knows my dad is worst. well i am not gonna hide any longer. i dont have a happy family like what i always tell my friends. my dad is a old man with a freaking childish mind and bad temper. he just cant stop make mum sad.

dad, mum need a man, one who she can depend on. who do u think u are, so wad if u are studying, taking up phd in uni. who cares abt that if u cant even give my mum some emotional comfort. she is ur wife, not ur mum. how many time have u look at my report book? well once! in this whole bloody 10 years and u only cared abt my result once, and that once is cuz i got all A's and u felt proud abt it. Where the hell are u when i got all F? when i need a father to teach me what to do how to pick up myself. Where were u all these time? why did u give up a job with a good pay and set up this bloody company that make lost more den income? just because ur fucking boss scolded u once u have to be ur own boss? did u think of us? how much mum have to endure through just to provided the basics for the family. where is the father who will give a damn of my well being? who will care for me? well u did care, u care for my relationship by telling me how ugly my exgirlfrends were. does that matter? did u marry mum cuz she is pretty? maybe u did. mum was so pretty in those old photos, look at what happen to her now.. the work load the stress. dont u feel anything? i need that firm hand on my shoulder. the encouraging smile. when was the last time i got that? like never!? do u know how ugly u looked when u fought me last night? the look on ur face, is not much different from the gangsters that i so much hated. did u realise what u said? u said"i will eat u to death even if i cant win u i will make sure i'll bite u to death" such a caring father i've got. u wanna bite me? is this something a normal 44 year old will say? HELL NO. so did u regret sending me to martial art classes? u cant win me, never! with that immature heart of urs. i will not abandon my parents, afterall i did survive till now. i will try my best to provide for u when it is my turn but pls, dun break mum's heart anymore.no matter what she is a girl. you are a father a husband pls do ur part in the family. throw away the fucking retarded idea that u are the king in the family. that will never happen, if u want that go back to the stone age. i know i am a bloody rebellious son but do think abt urself. ur are not the whole world.pls love my mum as u shd.if u did not realise, mum's younger but her hair is almost white under the dyed cover. and look at ur own head. y is ur hair black? well sorry to say but i thank god that i dun have ur temper

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